A year ago I did, probably, the most rebellious thing in my life!
I got a Tattoo.
Which you probably figured that out from the title.
I was at work chatting with a customer who had the coolest tattoo of a map of the world on his calf. We struck up a conversation and chatted for a good 10 minutes about travel and tattoos. I mentioned that I had wanted one for about six years and I finally knew what I wanted and where. And his comment was “You should get one, I think six years is long enough”
I thought “I think he’s right!”
That evening, I booked a consultation for the next morning.
The biggest thing that was stopping me from getting one was the fear of disappointing people, mainly my mother (whom I love dearly). Then that day, I realized, that wasn’t a good enough reason!
That night I had a hard time getting to sleep because I felt anxious that I was going to disappoint people.
I went to my consultation appointment with no intention of getting a tattoo that day. The appointment was a two minute conversation about placement and other stuff. Then he said “The only question now is, when do you want to get it done?” I can’t remember exactly what I said, but it was something along the lines of “I don’t know, when are you available?” and he replied with “I’m free now.”
My lovely friend Christina, who came with me to make sure I went through with it, chanted “Do it now! Do it now!” and I just said, “Ok. Let’s do it.”
He quickly drew it up and I got inked!
The reason behind the bird is when Jesus talks about anxiety in the Bible, Matthew 6:25-34. The key verse that inspired my tattoo is verse 26 “Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?”
Sure, it could have been a dove or a sparrow, but I just love humming birds. They are a beautiful small timid creature, that only show up when you least expect it.
But also, this was my visual reminder that I am not on this earth to please man, but God. A lot of my anxiety comes from trying to make everyone happy. Which, let’s face it, you can’t make everyone happy. If I can do this, even some people will be unhappy with me, than I can do the really important things. If I’m running around trying to please everyone on earth, I miss out on the amazing plan that God has for me.
I was even nervous about posting this, thinking who’s going to read it and disapprove? what are the comments going to be like? But that is the kind of thing I need to stop worrying about. This was something between God and me.
Now, please do not think that I am condoning that everyone should get a tattoo. If you are young and impressionable, please know that I have been thinking about getting a tattoo for the past 6 years.
I did not rush into this decision!
I made sure that I knew what I wanted and where I wanted it and thought about it for at least a 6 months or more.
If you are thinking “oh, this gives me permission to get a tattoo!” No. That’s not it. What I am trying to say is, you need to live life without fear! Fear will hold you back in life! Like fear has been holding me back. Now I have a visual reminder that I am not on this earth to please people but God, and I can do things even though people that I love don’t approve! I can (or at least try to) live without fear and start living the way God intended.
Do Not Be Anxious
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.